Somebody That I Used To Know

Now and then I think of when we were together

Like when you said you felt so happy you could die

I told myself that you were right for me

But felt so lonely in your company

But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness

Like resignation to the end, always the end

So when we found out that we could not make sense

Well you said we could still be friends

But I'll admit that I'm glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off

Make it like it never happened, that we were nothing

I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger

And that feels so rough

No you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect your records

And then change your number

Guess I didn't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know...

~Gotye

It's so strange to me how people come and go in our lives. We spend everyday talking to them, sharing our deepest feelings and thoughts with them, and just like that- they can be taken from you. I think back of close friends I don't speak to anymore, ex-boyfriends, even co-workers I thought were near and dear to my heart... what happened? I guess that's the beauty in life though. People are put in our lives for a reason unknown to us. It's kind of exciting... you never know who is going to be put in your life next and who you will share more great times with. 

The break-up process though just SUCKS. It never gets easier no matter how many relationships you are in or how many times you think you fell in love. Why is that? Don't our brains learn by now? "Okay, time to grieve and move on." Ha- I wish it was that simple! The toughest part is exactly what this song is saying- when someone x's you out of their life completely and acts like you meant nothing to them. HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE? I don't think it is, I think it is all an act, an easy way out, a defense mechanism, a way to avoid a crappy and emotional situation. Because when we let our emotions take over... well, let's face it. It is pretty freaking unbearable and we feel out of control of ourselves. 

I've had a lot of time to ponder over my recent heartbreak. Here are my little life lessons:

• You were fine before them, you'll be fine after them.
• There is no easy way of handling a break up... so just let it happen.
• Dealing with it by partying and drinking doesn't solve anything... unfortunately that's typically the guy's way of handling it!
• If you knew you did all you could and gave 100%, then that person is missing out.
• There will be someone who will want to give you 100%, won't make you compromise your life, and will want to do anything to be with you.
• Unfortunately, not everyone has as big of a heart or is as nice.
• Don't have expectations, because you most often will be let down.
• Sometimes we won't get the closure or the ending we want, we just have to accept what it is.

Basically... whenever one door closes, another one opens <3 I'm at the stage where now I am looking forward to seeing what God has to offer me next. Graduation is right around the corner, a possible move in the future, a fresh start? 

Beauty ALWAYS comes from pain. Just another hidden treasure!