Painful Endings and Beautiful Beginnings

"Bask in the luxury of being fully understood and unconditionally loved. Dare to see yourself as I see you: radiant in My righteousness, cleansed by My blood." -Sarah Young, Jesus Calling

I don't think I'm the only one who craves that unconditional love by someone in life. Isn't that what we all ultimately want? That person who no matter what is going to always be by your side, have your back, and be your best friend? Call me crazy for wanting such a thing... When do we know when we truly have that? Anyone at any moment can leave your life. You know... "the one," "your person," the individual you thought you were going to spend a future with, you talked about marriage and children with; the person who told you they're in it for the long haul... Thing is- it's all words. How do we know when it's real, fake, or 50/50? I guess I can answer my own question- WE DON'T. As human beings we have to figure it out the hard way, and trust me- I have had my fair share of figuring it out the hard way. I guess that's life though. And the beauty of it...? One day, we'll find that person who truly stands by their words and their actions, and who truly means those things. I have a slight feeling when that person comes into our lives, a glimmering light will shine down from heaven just to let us know "TAAADAAAAA!!! You found them!!!!!" (Just kidding, but it's nice to imagine) Instead, we have to follow our hearts, be open to love, let our guards down, and deal with the pain and the agony when people let us down.

I used to hate the phrase, "It's not you, it's me." But now I think "yeah, it is." BECAUSE IT IS! I found this excerpt from Susan J. Elliot on her Getting Past Your Breakup Blog...

Sometimes people are simply INCAPABLE of knowing a good thing when they see it. They have other agendas, other issues, other unfinished business that has NOTHING to do with you, but unfortunately you get to bear the brunt of it. Embrace the rejection from those people. It saves you YEARS of being the unwitting object of their unfinished crap.

There comes a point where we have to realize we are never going to understand why things ended the way they did, where the problem went wrong. I've sat here and pondered and NOTHING answers my questions. That's where faith steps in. Faith that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Faith that God has a much better plan ahead. And that my friends, is true and gets me through my toughest days. 

I'll admit... I've always been someone who likes to curl up on the couch, be away from the world, and watch a movie when I'm sad. And then eventually, I'll talk to my closest friends about it. I've really learned to rely on those people. That is what friends are there for. To listen to you and give you advice and be there for you. I don't know what I would do without those people in my life. SO THANK YOU. You all know who you are. 

By now (yes I am only 24, but trust me I have had a lot of heart break for a young age), I'd say it'd be pretty easy for me to put some walls up, some very high walls to guard my heart. But what good does that do? As much as heart breaks SUCK, I'd rather know I am capable of loving and opening up to someone than being a closed off individual. Once again, I'm going to steal from my good friend Susan J. Elliot...

Don’t take rejection hard or personally. It happens in life. It doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with you. It means the person, the job, the situation is not right for YOU. Even if you want it to be right…even if you really want that lover, that friend, that job, that house, that apartment, that whatever….doesn’t mean it’s the right thing for you and maybe they see it clearer than you. Or maybe they don’t appreciate you and you don’t want that in your life anyway.

It’s hard to put yourself out there. It’s hard to put the power in someone else’s hands. It feels like leading with your chin.

But you can overcome rejection, whether present rejection or long-ago rejection. Just keep the positive self-talk going, do your affirmations and know you are worth it and deserve all the good things that life has to offer.

"Approach problems with a light touch. When your mind moves toward a problem area, you tend to focus on that situation so intensely that you lose sight of Me. You pit yourself against the difficulty as if you had to conquer it immediately. Your mind gears up for battle, and your body becomes tense and anxious." -Sarah Young, Jesus Calling


"Leave outcomes up to me. Follow me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turn out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Live in the now, concentrating on staying in step with Me." -Sarah Young, Jesus Calling

Hidden Treasure: Sometimes we just need that extra learning lesson to have that "AHA!" moment.